Truth (as a noun) conformity with fact or reality ....and then there are the "truths" we tell when we are listening to our eating disorders. It's so easy to say " I already ate" when what I mean is "I ate at a time before now but not the meal that you are thinking of, but I know you won't ask for details." I can justify it because the statement is technically true - at least until my conscience kicks in and then I feel even worse. Today a co-worker said "You're starving?" to which I responded "No, actually I just had lunch so I'm really quite full." Of course I knew what she meant but it seemed safer to use the ed-truth. Even as it came out of my mouth I knew it was wrong, so when another friend told me that she had tattled on ed today, it inspired me to try it.
Its a really scary thing to actually admit to someone exactly what you are doing ed-wise. It also makes me feel a little more free because it's no longer a secret.
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